Spread the love around

I had a lovely anniversary dinner yesterday and lovely roses during the day. Can't believe it's been fourteen years and if you add the seven years courtship, twenty one years in all. They have been the happiest years of my life. Today after sending the two boys to work and school, I decided to spread the love around.

I called up a lovely lady, had breakfast with her and told her my plan to cheer another lady up. She had left the choir upset and I felt guilty for not showing them enough love. So the former called the latter's husband and asked for her location, then I went to ntuc and bought chocolate and fruits and came home to make a lovely basket. We surprised her and sang jingle bells and i said "christmas is here" and presented her the present. She had tears in her eyes and we hugged her.

Everybody needs love.

Smell of smoke

Today we come home from mama's house and i smell a strong stench of smoke from the maid's room. She says its just the stale smell from closing the window while we were out.:( I had brought the salt bake chicken and the left over noodles over for lunch but it wasn't served while i was there so I went into the kitchen to look for it and it lay on the counter with most of the chicken meat burried under the noodles. I brought it over to eat it, so I ate it seeing a frown on the maid's face. I tell my mother she's been given enough of food she does not have to eat what i intended to have for lunch. My mum had cooked yong tau fu in tao chio sauce, 3 fried fice, fried veg and a soup I requested but only 3 mouthfuls of chicken and 2 fish balls inside. The maids claimed that was all the chicken left they had shreaded it all. It just gets my blood boiling when they lie and try to hide food.

The hot water light was on but when i questioned the maid if she turned it on this morning before going out, she denied and said it was off when she left. Then who turned it on?

Do you love me? I love you...since the beginning

It's raining outside but for the first time i feel safe, calm and happy. After doing some quiet time, I know I am in good hands. Do you love me? i am asked I love you since the beginning.

I remember my talk with God when I was a teen. I didn't want to hurt anyone, I just wanted to love people. Now I realise it's easier to be part of a group or community and do it. So the choir has chosen to go out to families and sing christmas carols. I'm quite sure God will bless the act of kindness and cheer during a season of uncertainty and gloom.

Then I have to find time to get a cake to celebrate 4 birthdays, make some phone calls, invite some out to coffee and shop and wrap christmas presents.

The crying is over

Today is the first day Barney did not cry when he got to school.:) I had a chat with the principal of the school yesterday and she advised me to not give in to Barney's cries and provide him with alternatives. So as i drove him to school and requested his song to be played, i told him he has to wait till we drop daddy off. The smart boy tells me as soon as Tim gets out of the car "daddy dropped, song now" I say which song? and his reply is "Rudolf" . We hear it through and he says "again" and i tell him "ok it's mummy's song first then yours" so I got to listen to a lovely worship album then instead of putting his song on i sing "old macdonald". As he stepped into school today, the chinese teacher is conducting a sing-along-action song and he's distracted with the activity. I'm glad the teachers have been so kind to cater to Barney's needs so i pass him over to a teacher and wave to the other who months "wow no crying today" and i smile and say thanks.

Today i got a call from a new prospective student's mother. So i am encouraged to be a better teacher. I also get an invite to a house warming cum new baby party. hooray:)

Managing people

Most people want to know they are cared for, some have needs or requirements for them to render respect, many want to be led to a better place, and some after soul searching find their calling some where else and move on.

So i try to answer the call to "feed my sheep". Due to the many individual needs, i manage to meet up and talk to a few. Then i meet up with other shepherds who also help me to see how our society needs to have more "odd" people who speak up, who get irritated with people who do not fight for right, who are concerned for a more compassionate society whether in law or in daily living being forgiving of people's flaws and take the trouble to point them in the right direction or to show them a better alternative to life. My eyes are opened and i try again.

Faith without action is dead. I ask God for a clear direction and wisdom and i see little steps of love.

Catching up with friends

I'm looking forward to meeting up with another friend today. So even searching for wrapping paper that's gone missing doesn't irritate me as much. So i smile inside because catching up with friends bring such joy.

Barney loves the Jingle bells CD i got him and requests "again please" for the upteened time, but his face changes as soon as he sees the familiar road to school and his begging "mummy, mummy" breaks my heart again. So i reassure him i will be back and then wave bye. I tell myself he will be better off knowing how to socialise with other kids in school.

The day before i had lovely tea with the sweetest of friends and sugee cake to take home and share with the neighbour. Yesterday mum and i had kopi with a stick of 'you tiao'. Today it's dinner surprise and tomorrow a home cooked dinner with my secondary school friends. Mmm..lovely.

Stuffy cold

What makes us sick? Change of weather, germs, cold air-conditioning, unbalanced diet.. whatever the cause the effect makes my head feel heavy, my nose watery, and its an effort to stay positive and happy.

Still i am grateful the hubby has taken the baby out for lunch and i finally savour the solitude and rest. Get some lunch and then settle with a good book.